SEPARATION ANXIETY

I left Paducah one week ago today, and predictably for the past few days separation anxiety has begun to settle over me. Removed from my familiar routine and surroundings I begin to feel at loose ends, detached from my anchor. It should come as no surprise when I say than I spend a great deal of time “in my head”, working to stay connected to the ideas, feelings, and all that is numinous that give me inspiration and keep me engaged in my work. That has been my pattern all of my life, feeling that my work comes from some place deep within, giving me purpose and direction. When I am away from home I tend to lose that connection.

It no longer bothers me; I know it is temporary…I gladly accept it as a small price to pay for the pleasures of spending the time with family and dear friends.

Interestingly, while in Bologna for one month, I quickly established an environment of my own and a new routine which allowed me to remain focused and in touch with my work.

The only thing I have yet to figure out is…how do I avoid the emptiness of being away from Patience? That simply cannot be done; she is so deeply embedded in my life and the importance of her presence there is immeasurable. So, with a touch of sadness, a pinch of separation anxiety, and great deal of gratitude, I will thoroughly enjoy the remaining days and visits of this trip.






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